yet another of those 'staring at the night sky and reasoning my existence at iitk'.well for starters i had a wonderful treat...gr8 dinner at checkmate with the adventure club mates and then we returned wiht a few drunk like hell and shouting like god damn crazy,then sukkki's birthday bash and then the lone stare at the sky all alone in my favourite spot ,the roof of my wing.......so many questions that ring a bell in this ever so haunting and tormenting brain of mine(i know these words make little sense but i just felt gud writing it down so here it is)....what the hell am i goin here???why am i aspiring to become an engineer when the subject a fear most is the subject i will have to live my whole life with as an engineer-MATHS!!!!!!life seems so pointless and aimless....and these mood swings are gettong far more frequent and voilent than before...what is more amazing is the fact that my end sems(in which i desperately need to do well to maintain my cpi)are staring rite at my face and all i can think of are these silly idiotic pointless questions that even a dumbass cana answer................but surprisingly i cant!!!!why is life so unpredictable....why so full of messy choices and consequential decisions.....why can life not be as simple as it used to be back in school when all i cared about was school,friends,sports and tv and eating out of course.......why has life to get all messy now.....i cant think straight,cant behave straight.....lost my friends(something i guess i have always been winning about...for some reason i am yet to find out)its 3 in the night and i probably should be going to sleep...have a long day of studies today...so i stop now....i have lots to write but i guess it wll have to wait.....till it sweels so much in me that i simply burst out wiht it...and i am hoping that i get in such a situation not in front of one of my friends but in front of my comp...so that i dont feel ambarasses about it later.so gud nite for now....